By dictionary definition a Miracle is ~ "A surprising and welcome event that is not explicable by natural or scientific laws and is therefore considered to be the work of a divine agency". In my case though the literal meaning of this word did not deem fit yet I still could not define it as any other phenomenon but a miraculous one. Maybe because it played against the odds of having one with many like me.
A lot of us grow up with the dream of having a good education, a good career, eventually get married to an ideal partner and then of course the life cycle of procreation and having the pride of extending your lineage to the next generation continues. The caveat, however, to all of the above milestones is that it should preferably happen by a certain timeline. Not because society has a norm but more of the biological clock that fiercely ticks away, waiting for none, no matter how much ones tries to run against it. Well, there is a huge number of the entire population on earth for whom these milestones seem to happen almost just at the right time. Except for far and few like me. Now the same situation is not applicable to individuals who dream big. Marriage and family takes a back seat and they are busy with their life's pursuits. But it wasn't like that for me. I fall into that large category of human species who did not want to delay marriage and family by choice but it was purely coincidental and to a large extent circumstantial. I mean, what do you do, if for reasons unknown , you end up finding the wrong person twice in your life. Thank goodness! Atleast I had the strength not to succumb to emotional misguidance.
So I waited and decided that if marriage has to happen, it should be a great partnership for life. This decision was a tough one as most of my so called extended family, some of my so called friends would always come up with the most innovative ways to taunt. But it made me even more thick skinned. Today I am glad I became one. Eventually I got married to a person I almost half imagined the way he should be as a person. But it all happened when I was all of 34 years!! Way beyond the biological clock.
Me and my husband had an amazing story of how we organized the wedding all on our own. The wedding was a great success and the outcome was a bunch of happy family and friends. Life after marriage was as exciting as our courtship period. We had an amazing 10 months of marriage when one day both of us mutually decided to travel the path of parenthood. Since we were of the same age , we assumed conceiving naturally may be difficult for us. Hence we agreed to give it a try for maximum 6 months post which we will consult a good gynecologist for way forward. But destiny had already made the plans. A month later I missed my period date. I did not worry at all as it had happened few times before. But when the delay lasted for more than a week I got anxious. My husband told me to do a home pregnancy test. I laughed it off saying it can't be possible. But nevertheless the next day I still went ahead with the test. We were stunned when it came positive. My husband got excited too but we held our composure till we get a thorough check up done. We got the doctors appointment after two days. Those 48 hours were of intensity, tension and restlessness. I wanted to cry when the doctor confirmed that the pregnancy was positive. But she told us to wait for another week by which I would have completed 6 weeks into pregnancy , which is the ideal time to check the vital stats of the foetus. I kept calm throughout that week and requested my husband not to mention to anybody until we are absolutely sure. I wanted to be happy, scream with excitement and announce it from the top of a mountain to everyone. But my pessimism held me back. I just kept thinking how could I be so lucky when I know of so many couples who are trying to have a child for years and gone through various treatments and yet were unsuccessful. How could it happen so easily to me? Guess these kind of thoughts creep in when life has given things to you the hard way.
When the lab reports of my tests came, the doctor proudly announced that a happy healthy baby has started growing inside me. The feeling of seeing a little human grow inside of you through an ultrasound is almost inexplicable . All thanks to modern science & technology and its gifts to mankind. The virtual image of a tiny baby was nothing less than a near miracle for us. The next few months went pretty slow or maybe it seemed slow as I was waiting anxiously for the baby to arrive. Thankfully I did not go through any major complications. But I still kept my fingers crossed, hoping everything would be fine and I would be blessed with a happy healthy baby soon. Though my inherent character is extremely optimistic but during my whole pregnancy I struggled with pessimism. I used to have nightmares of waking up and finding my baby is gone or something worse has happened. Later while reading an article on pregnancy I found these symptoms were quite common especially in first pregnancy. In my 37th week I was diagnosed with a liver complication. The doctors decided to induced me into labor . I have always been extremely scared of hospitals and doctors. This decision did worry my husband a lot and me slightly. But I had immense faith in the work of the Divine. I let go of my fears and just decided to take a moment at a time. I was admitted to Englewood hospital by 4pm on 16th November, Monday, 2015 and on the 17th of November 2015, at 12.25pm I delivered a happy healthy wide eyed baby boy without any further complications. Ten minutes post my little boy was born the nurses latched him against my chest. As I held him, it dawned on me that the greatest miracle on earth has been bestowed on us. I am the blessed one to be able to make such a beautiful baby, a work purely of the Divine. I have always led a mediocre life, a job which paid my bills, struggling to make a good life for myself, learning with life's experiences, there was nothing extraordinary that I have done so far until that fateful moment.
If ever in life I would achieve anythiing worthwhile of being called extraordinary , still I know for sure it can never be close to the miracle of bringing my baby boy to this world. A phenomenon which for me is and will always be a Miracle even if I know it is a biological and scientific process that many many women around the world experience in their life cycle. My birthing process shall be my Miracle forever!!
A lot of us grow up with the dream of having a good education, a good career, eventually get married to an ideal partner and then of course the life cycle of procreation and having the pride of extending your lineage to the next generation continues. The caveat, however, to all of the above milestones is that it should preferably happen by a certain timeline. Not because society has a norm but more of the biological clock that fiercely ticks away, waiting for none, no matter how much ones tries to run against it. Well, there is a huge number of the entire population on earth for whom these milestones seem to happen almost just at the right time. Except for far and few like me. Now the same situation is not applicable to individuals who dream big. Marriage and family takes a back seat and they are busy with their life's pursuits. But it wasn't like that for me. I fall into that large category of human species who did not want to delay marriage and family by choice but it was purely coincidental and to a large extent circumstantial. I mean, what do you do, if for reasons unknown , you end up finding the wrong person twice in your life. Thank goodness! Atleast I had the strength not to succumb to emotional misguidance.
So I waited and decided that if marriage has to happen, it should be a great partnership for life. This decision was a tough one as most of my so called extended family, some of my so called friends would always come up with the most innovative ways to taunt. But it made me even more thick skinned. Today I am glad I became one. Eventually I got married to a person I almost half imagined the way he should be as a person. But it all happened when I was all of 34 years!! Way beyond the biological clock.
Me and my husband had an amazing story of how we organized the wedding all on our own. The wedding was a great success and the outcome was a bunch of happy family and friends. Life after marriage was as exciting as our courtship period. We had an amazing 10 months of marriage when one day both of us mutually decided to travel the path of parenthood. Since we were of the same age , we assumed conceiving naturally may be difficult for us. Hence we agreed to give it a try for maximum 6 months post which we will consult a good gynecologist for way forward. But destiny had already made the plans. A month later I missed my period date. I did not worry at all as it had happened few times before. But when the delay lasted for more than a week I got anxious. My husband told me to do a home pregnancy test. I laughed it off saying it can't be possible. But nevertheless the next day I still went ahead with the test. We were stunned when it came positive. My husband got excited too but we held our composure till we get a thorough check up done. We got the doctors appointment after two days. Those 48 hours were of intensity, tension and restlessness. I wanted to cry when the doctor confirmed that the pregnancy was positive. But she told us to wait for another week by which I would have completed 6 weeks into pregnancy , which is the ideal time to check the vital stats of the foetus. I kept calm throughout that week and requested my husband not to mention to anybody until we are absolutely sure. I wanted to be happy, scream with excitement and announce it from the top of a mountain to everyone. But my pessimism held me back. I just kept thinking how could I be so lucky when I know of so many couples who are trying to have a child for years and gone through various treatments and yet were unsuccessful. How could it happen so easily to me? Guess these kind of thoughts creep in when life has given things to you the hard way.
When the lab reports of my tests came, the doctor proudly announced that a happy healthy baby has started growing inside me. The feeling of seeing a little human grow inside of you through an ultrasound is almost inexplicable . All thanks to modern science & technology and its gifts to mankind. The virtual image of a tiny baby was nothing less than a near miracle for us. The next few months went pretty slow or maybe it seemed slow as I was waiting anxiously for the baby to arrive. Thankfully I did not go through any major complications. But I still kept my fingers crossed, hoping everything would be fine and I would be blessed with a happy healthy baby soon. Though my inherent character is extremely optimistic but during my whole pregnancy I struggled with pessimism. I used to have nightmares of waking up and finding my baby is gone or something worse has happened. Later while reading an article on pregnancy I found these symptoms were quite common especially in first pregnancy. In my 37th week I was diagnosed with a liver complication. The doctors decided to induced me into labor . I have always been extremely scared of hospitals and doctors. This decision did worry my husband a lot and me slightly. But I had immense faith in the work of the Divine. I let go of my fears and just decided to take a moment at a time. I was admitted to Englewood hospital by 4pm on 16th November, Monday, 2015 and on the 17th of November 2015, at 12.25pm I delivered a happy healthy wide eyed baby boy without any further complications. Ten minutes post my little boy was born the nurses latched him against my chest. As I held him, it dawned on me that the greatest miracle on earth has been bestowed on us. I am the blessed one to be able to make such a beautiful baby, a work purely of the Divine. I have always led a mediocre life, a job which paid my bills, struggling to make a good life for myself, learning with life's experiences, there was nothing extraordinary that I have done so far until that fateful moment.
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| When I held my tiny bundle of Miracle close to my heart, life never felt more beautiful😍 |
If ever in life I would achieve anythiing worthwhile of being called extraordinary , still I know for sure it can never be close to the miracle of bringing my baby boy to this world. A phenomenon which for me is and will always be a Miracle even if I know it is a biological and scientific process that many many women around the world experience in their life cycle. My birthing process shall be my Miracle forever!!
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